just blargh

I am now a parent of a wonderful 19 month old little boy named Mark Boyd Vore and I wouldn't change anything except the fact that I live with my parents and Mara and Meyrick are trying to micromanage my parenting telling me "you're lazy, because you never watch you son." mark doesn't need constant eye contact for me to watch him I wear myself out playing with him until nap time and then sometimes after nap time on days the other kids have school I am sick and tired of them trying to tell me how to be a mom I have done a bang up job with out there help Mark was just fine when I had a place of my own he doesn't get into much and what he does get into I take care of I just wish I could be on my own or at least in a room mate situation where my siblings weren't present in my parenting life I am so tempted to just disappear and see what they think of losing mark and I completely but that's not good for mark or for me so I will just have to suffer through what hell they decide to bring to me today with their verbal putdowns

life suck! I don't know how committed I am to my almost perfect relationship. I don't know what to do. Should I stay with him or leave him and what do I do about the kids?

EEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

Well in the last couple of months, I have gotten engaged! Makes me happy but the down side of life is I chose to quit my job because my supervisor was talking behind my back and causing a lot of drama between me and my other co workers so I chose to leave. I am loving life for the most part just trying to find a job to finance my wedding next May

life rox

well its been awhile since I posted last I know no one follows me but its nice to write my thought
my life is finally working itself out I have never been stronger in the church, I am in school, and I have lost a couple of inches in the last few weeks.
I am not like all my other girl friends......boy crazy I really like dating ya but my social life doesn't depend on dates I go out all the time by myself because i am just that AWESOME..... ya not going to happen I am just lame like that its been almost a year since I had Ashley who is in the best enviroment any mother could hope for I wouldn't take it back for anyhting in the world! I know my posts have been short and sweet but when I have this much time I like to type......alot. It tends to be my weekness when I get around a keyboard and nothing to do but think
well I am out

school

so its been all of three days that I have been in school and I already have a butt load of homework like 170 someodd math problems and 2 essays all due by friday and with work giving me fulltine hours when I am part time I am starting to get pissed and with my being on probation already because I have been redally sick like way bad almost like morning sickness to the max it sucks but with homework school ad work I have no time to myself and I don't know what t do anymore when I do have time to myself I have so many things to do I don't knwo where to start

well things are looking up I am starting school this week and ashley is forever sealed to her family and I am so happy I got to go to court with them last week to finalize the adoption I don't think I have been happier
church was great today afterwards we had sack lunches it was interestinly fun for me and well thats about as far as church goes
I have no social life I am always iwth my friend megan on ym days off or going to the temple
my dating life still sucks no one asks me anymore and I am not so sure I want to date just yet ya its nice and all but I am still trying to set in my schedule for work and school

headache central

so my life is great, great boyfriend, great friends, great school, great family. But when pretty girl (lol) like me gets serious with someone.. about 5 other guys pop up and confess their feelings and you used to like them before you were with this mister wonderful and you don't know what to do
I have a hard enough time saying no as it is and I guess this is just making it easier for me....LOL
well I am planning one of the biggest things in my life next to marriage....IO am moving out to South Carolina with my Boyfriend to see if we can handle being married insstead of going through a nasty divorce we would just go through a nasty break up .....I love my parents but I don't want to go through what they did