Saturday, November 7, 2009

ugh

why me? i question I have asked over and over the last 9 months
lately I have been feeling like I ca do the single parenting thing, but I know its not what I want...I want to be able to live life before I settle down with anything permanent. But my mom and step dad keep telling me I can do it, so much that they are trying to influence me. I wish they would completely back off and let me do my thing. ugh I don't know what to do anymore I know that this adoption will happen even though it will be a little delayed. I just need to prove to my mother that this is what I want and that I chose it for a reason, and not to take the easy way out like my step dad keeps accussnig me off

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

whoa

wow what a day it has been. I have yet to get my daily shower in and I smell like a swimming pool!!! ugh
but I can't find the blasted baking soda to make cookies
I wish I could bed over. this baby thing is getting really old thank heavens I only have 4-5 weeks left until I am due WHEW I am so done being pregnant
I am not really looking forward to the signing of the adoption papers but who does really?
anyways life has been great I met this guy Chris and OMG what a bod but that's not what I am after he meets my personality standards to the max which is great for me